LTF Weekly Newsletter – March 30th, 2009
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What You Can Expect
“Know that if you’ve begun to emotionalize your spiritual lessons, you should be feeling sad and scared; sad because your old ego defenses no longer work and scared because your old belief systems are in a state of flux and your new Self-Mastery beliefs haven’t solidified yet.” – Hu Dalconzo paraphrased
Quite often we have this image in our heads that our lives will be all peaceful and happy when we start down a spiritual path.
Actually in the beginning, exactly the opposite happens. When we truly start doing the work to let go of our repressed emotional toxic energy, our lives get worse before they get better.
Most people quit when this happens. Many people suddenly find that they’re too busy to do the work. They point to many legitimate reasons like their jobs get busy, their children need them, they need to spend more time doing this or that, they just don’t have time, but the truth is that their ego is so freaked out by the intensity of the feelings that are coming up that it unconsciously creates reasons why they can’t continue.
This is one of the reasons why it’s good to work with a coach who has been through that process and also the real reason that sessions have to be paid in advance. If I had not paid for my sessions in advance, I would not have shown up to many of them because I thought my coach was going to be mad that I didn’t get all of the work done…or disappointed that I felt like my life was falling apart. Instead…my coach helped me to let go of the pain that was surfacing and taught me how to distinguish what I was feeling from what was really happening.
I learned that what I was feeling, the intense feelings were the years of anger, frustration, disappointment, fear, sadness, embarrassment and shame that I had buried within me. Things seemed to be getting worse because these emotions were coming to the surface. But the reason they were coming up was so that I could feel and release them. Once I understood that the energy needed to come out the way it went in, I allowed myself to just feel my feelings, breathe into them and release them.
So if it went in as anger, it came out that way. I had to allow myself to feel angry, to really feel it, not just think about why I was angry.
Sometimes this process can make someone feel as if they’re losing their mind…and they are. That’s the point…to lose identification with the mind.
In order to know ourselves as spiritual beings, we must identify with that part of ourselves experientially…not just conceptually.
And we have to peel away the layers of programming and emotional pain that separates us feeling that Divinity within us.
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